Tonight was the first night in a very very long time where I got so pissed off that I could've walked right out the door with a big fuck you to my job and never looked back. It was stupid and I hate that I got so upset, then pissed off because I let it upset me, that I cried. For more than half my 10 hours in hell. UGH!!! People just suck. That's all there is to it, but the boss' boss is aware of some of the crap and will deal with it. I'm not looking forward to going back in tomorrow afternoon simply because I'm sure more will be said to me because I did let my lead know what was said and done. So I will wait until the last minute before I have to go into my little area in prep and then I will not go back alone. I'm suck a wuss.

But in the light of all of this, I had inspiration for a story. No, nothing to do with anything at work, lol. But something that just came out of no where. Actually, it hit me when I was watching Ellen this afternoon and saw Nick Carter on there. Will it go anywhere? I don't know. But it's in my head and perhaps something will work out. I miss writing and that creative outlet. Maybe that cry is what I needed, but did it have to be in public?!?!

Now, on to other things. Tia, if you're still out there, how you be? From what I understand, and of course this can change at any moment, I have this weekend and next weekend and then....we *should* be back to 4 10's and zomg, I'll have weekends off!!! *dances* I forgot where i was going, but heeey...weekends off. And hopefully I'll still have a job. Now, I need to get to bed because it's 4:15 am and I have to be back in to work at 2:15 pm for one of my two overtime days. The 56 hour paychecks have been great, but holy cow, it's just about killed me.

Dear Fanfic Muses:

Hello old friends. It really has been a while since you've come to visit, hasn't it? And when you do, you come in droves and bring so many ideas that I can't choose just one.

This time, you've brought me one idea for one guy being a total prick who redeems himself by trying to make it up to his ex who was in a bad accident and has amnesia and needs a lot of rehab therapy. It's his chance to make it right and in the process, he falls back in love and she falls in love for the first time since she doesn't remember a damned thing about him from before. Oh, let's throw in a baby that's killed in the accident, too.

A friend you brought with you, dear Muse, is convinced going the opposite route of amnesia and having him in an accident and is found by some recluse who doesn't know anything about pop music for the past 99999 years, so she nurses him back to health. He has vague memories of being able to play music, but how, he has no idea. I think this Muse has been watching too many soap-operas.

And finally, the third one that's bouncing in my head: Guy whomever is driving along in the middle of one of the worst snow-storms in recent history. His car dies on him in a very remote location and he can't get cell service and his OnStar or whatever he might have isn't available, either. He's wandering around and as he's almost lost, is found by a woman living alone in that area in a cabin waaaaaaaay off the beaten path. Why is she there? We don't know yet. But here's a twist anyone who's read my Mary-Sue laden stories will see coming. Let's make this mystery woman pregnant and surprise, go into labor and Guy whomever has to deliver the baby. How funny for this scene: Guy: I'm so sorry, but I have to look to see. I uh...I never even bought you dinner...

With love,
Me

So I've been at this new job for a little over a week now. It's hotter than 12 degrees of hell in the place. No A/C AT ALL in the area where I work. Plenty of loud machines and fans that just blow the heat from the machines around.

It's so crazy, but I hate going to work and after my shift is over, I hate it even more. But while I'm there? No problem in the world. I've had lots of little plot bunnies hatch (look at me, mixing my animal births. LOL) while I've been at work. I've had to shove a few back in boxes because I just don't have the time for them. I try to sneak in a little actual long-hand writing time when things slow down, but they never really do. Even when I'm operating a slow-moving machine, there's always something else to do, usually another machine. Like tonight, for example, I was operating three machines. There would've been four, but one needed a part and it didn't come in in time. Darn. Pfftt. It was hot and I was actually sweating. Not that I haven't before, but last night and tonight was different. I even had to pee a couple of times!! I kept downing water and gatorade (after getting sick and almost passing out the second night there, I sucked it up and started drinking gatorade to keep from totally dehydrating) and finally was able to do more than just sweat it out.

I've been lucky ever since almost passing out, the jobs I've been assigned to have been "sit down" ones. And no opening and closing a door, which is stupid b/c the parts should just either fall out onto a conveyer *sp* belt or be taken out by a robotic arm. NOT by the operator opening a door, reaching in, and pulling the part out. But that's just my opinion.

How is everyone? I miss talking to people.

Tia, look! New layout. ;) It's cute and maybe when I find the other one I like, I'll put it in.

Now, I'm taking my exhausted ass to bed. Night all.

I know this is my writing journal, but sometimes, you just gotta have a place to vent and get some crap off your chest. This is my rare occasion of that.

( Cut for whine and length )

On a different note, I'm actually feeling Rain To Snow once more. I might start writing on it again.

DAMN IT! Cancel any plans on "shining on a silhouette" as it has been read/re-worked so far. I just can't change it from it's original content. It doesn't feel right and I can't go against what I'm feeling. Or not in this instance.

*sigh*

Back to the drawing board...but I am so keeping that title of a story. I happen to looove it. Maybe I can use it for another one.

Dear Fanfic muses and plot bunnies:

I concede. You win. You may take hiatuses with two of my stories. I can't fight when I know I'm going to lose. When you're ready with Blurred and Rain to Snow, the door is always open for your return. Please, return with at least one of those, preferably Rain To Snow.

Loyally yours,

me.

You do realize this is just for you to see before everyone else, right? Aaand....this is the chapter where it DOESN'T happen. *snicker*

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